School day was more eventful than usual today. First off, Ms Wong thought it was day 2 today and so turned up late for class. She left us to guess what she said when she found out it was day 7. Kevin set a good example by going to look for her when she was still absent after 10 minutes, and staff tried to call her phone which was on silent, so naturally that didn't work out.

During chem, Ms Yeo was writing on the board when this rather big green insect appeared in front of her and she jumped back in surprise. Gerrard said: punch it. Ms Yeo invited him forward to do so, which of course did not happen. Instead, the insect flew towards him. Gerrard retreated hastily from it by ducking. Everyone was in fits of laughter. The bug came round hovering over my side and San Zeng was prepared to hit it but I just acted like I wasn't afraid of it when I really was because I feared it might be a disease spreading mosquito. Ms Yeo then called for Samuel who was being punished outside the class, to use a file and wave it out of the window but not kill it. After a slight chase round half the lab, he managed to get the insect to a closed window. He pushed the window open with the file and within split seconds, it was gone.

Maths was stupid, I forgot to bring my notes. And there were some usual rebellious remarks. The current chapter of notes was prepared by Mr Wu, and he had always said that mistakes were present in other teacher's notes because they were not prepared by him, jokingly of course. Ironically, there were at least 5 errors in his notes, though they were really trivial. An example was the mispelling of Dhoby Ghaut. Another was a distance covered of 400m in 4 hours. Ridiculously slow, but he found an excuse for it, that it was perfectly logical, a snail could do that. So we changed it to km, then the speed became too great for normal cars on an expressway, at 200km/h. Either too fast or too slow, haha.

So its 4 bad trainings in a row now. Lost to Marcus twice, Dawn twice, Jerilyn once and a girl whose name I don't know, pathetic loss either way. It's making me want to give up on TT and now I just can't wait for end April to come.

I was actually looking forward to today, bad idea now. PE was a fail. I took up the goalkeeper's role today since Ming Xuan had been previously and suffered unfairly. We finally picked up our first win in 4 or 5 weeks? Happy much, then the next opponent, started off with a straight shot for the goal. At waist level, I was unable to meet the ball and it just flew straight into the net. Worst, win, ever. Fastest goal of all time, really.

There were some impressive plays by the other teams, as usual. Its exciting to watch. When we had our second chance, Kai Xun had the post of goalkeeper. We defeated a second opponent, and out came the next one. My other three teammates blocked the middle this time while I feared a shot from the right so I was on guard over there. The ball was played by the opposing team, THROUGH the legs of my three teammates and into the corner of the net as Kai Xun brainlagged and missed the save. Second embarrassing loss in one day, 2 fastest games of all time. Epic.

Physics test, lol went bad but I know where I went wrong. I had 2 minutes left and my last page was blank, one question had 4/20 marks. Most people were in the same situation. But I then found out that we were given 5 lines for a 1 mark question. The 4 mark question was merely a table to fill in, easy enough. Wow that page really scared everyone. Majority of the time was spent on a calculation question though, where I haven't found anyone with the same answer.

The day passed rather slowly, I was doing my manual countdown to the end of the day with my calculator again. 1500 seconds. Bell rang at 17.

Went for Track and Field heats. I signed up for 100m 200m and 4 X 100m but I only ran the 100m because I wanted to go back for training, so I just dropped the 200m. I wasn't eligible for the relay anyway, finished 4th or 5th during my run.

Made my way back to school, played Darren a bit, beat Marcus in the dark, when the lights came on, lost to him. End of day. Saw this guy do 13 pull ups in like 30 seconds, might have had more before that. Motivated me so hard that I set a new record for myself today.

Final day of Term 1, I am really glad for this break. But that's not the point of this post.

Today, an earthquake of magnitude 8.9 hits Japan. Reading the articles and reports are saddening, watching footage of the situation is even more horrifying. As a tsunami wrecks havoc around the country, I feel sympathetic to survivors who lose their homes and just about everything they have ever had. As for the death toll, I expect it to be high as it is a populated city and most of the buildings have collapsed and are traveling along with the water as scrap chunks. The recovery for Japan will not be an easy one, neither is clearing up the debris just for that to happen. Despite Japanese cruelty in World War 2, this is not what they deserve. God please have mercy on the people and help them to survive through this night as the tsunami rages on to other parts of the world. Please ensure that they suffer no more, the disaster is bad enough and could possibly get worse. It is in your hands to prevent this and save the people. As for the aftermath, help Japan to recover quickly, millions of people are currently without electricity in Japan. Help stop this catastrophe which may arise in other countries quickly. Amen.

4 Sundays later, I finally get a good training session. We're now in Finals of the tournament, ready to face SSS. We'll win, naturally.

3.30 arrival, on time, for once. I expected no one to come, but it was quite full. Well I wasn't tasked with anything at the start, so I just played with Benjamin for a while until he went to 'catch his breath'.

After that we played some ultra stupid joke game of baseball, table tennis style. Darren and I, Ben and Darrel. We were all so tickled and amused by all the crap that came up. Changing pitcher and batters, random home runs, strikes and balls 1 2 and 3. It was a really funny time but sadly boring for me after a while.

I ended that dumb game of baseball by asking to play doubles proper. 3 - 2 we won, last set 11 - 9, I was quite happy that I beat Ben somewhere, having lost to him thrice in the past 2 weeks, but I haven't gotten the satisfaction of winning in Singles yet.

Following that, I doubled with Marcus against the Darren and Benedict. 3 - 2 close win again for us. Then we followed up with dumb game 2. Triples :) Not as retarded as Baseball, but insanely hard to play. And it didn't last too long either. Still hilariously stupid though.

Coach made me pair with Benjamin next, against Darren and Ben again. We lost this time, 3 - 2. I found one part very funny. Ben told Darren to serve some ball, and Darren was preparing to serve, then he was about to throw the ball but stopped and said: "Results may vary". I don't know if it's me or what but I felt that was really good. I guess its the phrase and words that he used.

So after that, the epic season began. 4 seniors + our 4 doubles paired. That is, 大的带着小的，打双打. Each pair played against every other pair. There were many points where the seniors would shout in unison out of surprise. I didn't take note of the first match, I was playing a match with Marcus and Timothy each, both which I won. All I can say is that all their matches were intense, most of them going up to 2 - 2 and having a really sweatbreaking last set. Darren and his 长胶 partner lost to Edwin and Darrel, while Ben and his doubles guy won Ying Jie and Rui Jie.

Edwin + Darrel vs Ying Jie + Rui Jie, 2 - 3.
Darren + idk vs Ben + idk, 3 - 2
Played with Ziping, didn't realize he was using his left hand because the balls were still very 转, madness.

Final match, Edwin Darrel got an easy win over Ben and his teammate. Rui Jie Ying Jie Darren and Mr. 长胶 had a fight to the bitter end. Ying Jie just kept doing his dives to the ground, which he said was commitment to earning the point. Apparently there was one point where Ying Jie dived, when the ball came back, Rui Jie went to receive but tripped over Ying Jie's head in the process. Darren's return missed and both him and his partner collapsed in disbelief ad frustration, so all 4 players were on the ground. 

Darrel missed another vital point in the last set where neither Ying nor Rui Jie were in the position to stop it, and it was a high ball too. Utter embarrassment. Darren and the 长胶 guy lost in the end.

Had another match with Timothy, then left for home. 6 pull ups today.

It's been raining heavily for 3 days straight now, to the point that there were at least 50 people late for school today. Car engine overheated, it was moving at like 5km/h, lucky it was in school when that happened so we could park the car.

The day passed reasonably well, Jia Hui has left for Malaysia. Competitions still going well, we've guaranteed ourselves a spot in the nationals, naturally. Days have been uneventful recently.

I'm feeling terrible right now because of someone who means a lot to me. School part made me feel even more stressed, what's with the homework and tests being so numerous and having such close dates to each other? Add to that Table Tennis Tournament, and I don't exactly live close to school. Well I'll make it through this, and the shit that I'm so upset about. Each of them is a small thing, but when small things come in large numbers, the feeling that comes with it is a painful one.

I had an ok time with school, I was very nervous when it came closer to the time to leave because the wall clock was a little fast, and I also didn't like to interrupt the teacher in her speech just to hand her a form to be excused from class. I was slightly off time, but it totally didn't matter. Daryl apparently "dragged" Kai Shiun along and they turned up too. For the first time in 4 years, I finally feel that I actually belong in the team, although it isn't so. The competitions are no longer about skill, and we happen to be one of those "cheats". I finally got to play, doubled with Timothy. The only reason we were on was because our opponents had virtually no chance. I expected to 发丢 a lot, but didn't even waste a single ball. And they ate everything. Haiz that concluded today and I'm feeling bad again. Oh chicken nuggets were awesome anyway.

Bus ride: Did a good deed :), but waited like 20 minutes again. Searched the Timetable in desperation and then it came.

Training was again a balanced day? But I think I was more irritated by my 发丢s today than on Wednesday, this was way too many. Every match, 发丢 at least 4 times, totally unacceptable. Started off with Yirong 拉球。我真的不知道她在拉球还是杀球，我觉得我们打够长她能打断我的球拍，用这么大的力气. And I was really failing in the beginning. That took quite a while, then, close the shutters, returned for doubles. With Daryl.

Yirong and Jerilyn got 100% win, neither Daryl and I nor Dawn and Deirdre could beat them after repeated attempts, though I felt that we could have made it every single time. I felt that the difference was really my 发丢, because the scores were that close. Poor Hanzhi got a cute partner but not really strong as I expected, or she used to. I think Hanzhi might have been able to kill Yirong and Jerilyn if she had a better partner. Anyway, that's what we did. Win lose win lose. Almost lost ridiculously to a couple of kids, it would have been extremely embarrassing but we saved ourselves.

When Yirong and Jerilyn left, we played against Dawn and Deirdre. Won, then Dawn asked for rematch, so we played again, and lost. Then when coach came to ask who won, he didn't get it right and thought they won, so they were set against Benedict and Rui Jie, while we face Hanzhi and her nice little partner again. Winners were to be treated. But as usual, he didn't give me. What was worse was that he did give Dawn and Deirdre.

I just had a lot of crap to face today, this is really too much. I'm just going to list down points that probably only I will ever understand, in the event that I ever have to find a worser day than this.

PE
Bio Test
Maths Holiday Homework
Lousy training
KX TT
Physics Notes
Braces
SMS

OK so I finally got to attend training. I waited long enough alright. But it was quite pissing at some parts. Talked to Isabelle a little, then coach asked me to clean this puddle of water with a cloth, totally felt like some housekeeper. I started off with a match against some girl who was already upset. Well I didn't do too well either, won 2 lost 2 before winning the last. Isabelle was asking for Deirdre and Hanzhi. She felt that she wasn't doing fine either. They did come eventually, so did Benedict, whom I had been looking for. Then, Ziping, and twins. Awesome. Next was doubles, and today, I found out I disliked 2 particular AT girls. So rude for their age, to someone much older. Well, I had to pair with one of them while Darrel took the other. Doubles match in our favour.

Following that match, I was made to play 三分 with the 5 girls, including the 2 of them, while Darrel got to do singles with Deirdre while Benedict and Darren, doubles against Hanzhi and Isabelle. I was irritated, right from the start。 叫人也要喊几次，又没礼貌地喊，你已为你是谁啊！ I was so glad it lasted only one set, because we were then called to play Doubles. I got Darrel back, and coach promised us a drink each if we got 100% win. First was against Isabelle and one of those girls, was a standard comeback match, but we still got the win. Quite a few tycos, and Isabelle has now been added to the list of people who officially cannot 吃 my 发球.

Next was, those 2. Well they were incredibly unfocused and annoying because they kept laughing and didn't play seriously. For giving us an easy win though, I didn't mind. The third game was us against 2 more nicer girls, well, quieter. We took this too, though we lost a set. We waited to face Deirdre and Hanzhi, because Isabelle now had 小马 as her partner and they were playing an intense match against Benedict and Darren. Several disputes over the score came up, but in the end Benedict and Darren lost, then we were told to stop. And I did want to play against Deirdre and Hanzhi, but they would probably have resulted in our downfall and cost us the 100% win, so maybe it was better that way.

We then did 三分 with them, guys vs girls. Twins + Me vs Deirdre Hanzhi Isabelle. Well as usual, funny outcomes as each ball was important. We won the first set, lost the second, ended the third at 11 because it was taking too long. Well ok 12, because they decided to say deuce, and that sneaky Isabelle only said to end at 11 when they were there. I don't know what happened, but I think I got tired during the second set and started to fail. That probably resulted in constant losses, I guess.

2011, a currently ok start off. I love being on the top floor, towering over the rest, even though I'm short. Current state of events is that I'm coping with work. I am going to try and improve myself in terms of character and academic performance.

First week, I wanted to turn up for training, but camp killed that plan. The week after, or Wednesday, Level Test was in the way. Level Test was an unusually stressful period, for a test not given the weightage of an exam. Well, A-Maths was fine, I thought I would do badly here, comparing to last year's results, but I looked through my paper and found that I actually knew how to do everything, but the amount of careless mistakes were horrifying, I was so shocked when I saw that that was actually the cause of my poor result.

Physics, killed everyone. Really everyone. No one could tell me that they found it ok, all were expecting a fail. I found the paper unfair because we had not been tested on the topics included before and those topics were the majority of the questions. The Level Test was supposed to cover everything from last year including anything taught during the 2-week holiday class, but naturally most of us would study everything taught during term time as it consisted of more topics, but well, we still have to know this in the end so I guess it's better to fail now.

I studied hard for Chemistry that night, but didn't cover everything. The paper turned out to be everything that I had mastered in addition to the parts that I studied for. As I was again quite unfamiliar with the newer chapters, I was not sure how to answer the questions. At least it felt a lot better than "I don't know" as Physics made me feel so.

Biology was ok again, such a relief because I didn't want another paper like Physics, and it was also the last test. Stress would be over, temporarily as I face many more upcoming tests. I would finally be free to go for training, after a month. I really wanted to go but holiday, Level Tests and the Camp prevented that.

Friday, Pig's Eye Dissection. I was even more afraid of this than I had felt when cutting up it's heart. Eyeballs are a vital organ and they are very fragile. Once gone, they cannot be replaced, unlike livers and kidneys where transplants are possible. They are also very vulnerable to small sharp objects. The thought of having someone touch my eyeball was painful, but to have a knife through it with me alive, I'd rather be dead, I doubt I can take the agony. It also feels very unsafe to have just one eye, and you actually become more unsure with one eye in terms of reaching for objects.

So, in pairs. Our teacher demonstrated a dissection. The way he scrapped the skin of it, cut it's muscles away, then let the black vitreous humour leak out was disgusting. Flipping it inside out to see the blind spot was less so, but I still wouldn't want anyone playing with my eye like that. When we had to do it ourselves, I tried to be nice to the eye, didn't use too much force, resulted in failure, of course. Taking out it's lens was revolting. It's like having someone pull out your eyeball from it's socket, just that the lens is the eyeball and the eyeball is the socket. The jelly-like lens was flicked around, it seemed like it could split any moment, and that's terrible if it does happen in your eye. I even got a few pictures at the risk of my phone being taken away, but it was only done on request.

Saturday. Dental appointment. Got that bracket back in place, tightened a little. Went for training at 2.20. I was at the transfer stop at 2:55. 10 buses that I could have taken, came by, one of them, 4 rounds, except the one that I needed. I was frustrated by that. Every bus that came by, I hoped so hard for it to be it, but no. Then, when I finally got to school at 3.20, I found out that the hall was occupied, by painters. Really mad at what just happened. Everything that I went through, all the time that I was prevented from attending training, then finally getting the chance to come, took the long journey here, and this had to happen, training was cancelled because of painting. Well, that ends my day of any interesting activity, now I look forward to getting replies that training is on tomorrow, so that I can get to see my juniors, after a very long time.