Monday, 31 January 2011

It's been raining heavily for 3 days straight now, to the point that there were at least 50 people late for school today. Car engine overheated, it was moving at like 5km/h, lucky it was in school when that happened so we could park the car.

The day passed reasonably well, Jia Hui has left for Malaysia. Competitions still going well, we've guaranteed ourselves a spot in the nationals, naturally. Days have been uneventful recently.

Tuesday, 25 January 2011

I'm feeling terrible right now because of someone who means a lot to me. School part made me feel even more stressed, what's with the homework and tests being so numerous and having such close dates to each other? Add to that Table Tennis Tournament, and I don't exactly live close to school. Well I'll make it through this, and the shit that I'm so upset about. Each of them is a small thing, but when small things come in large numbers, the feeling that comes with it is a painful one.

I had an ok time with school, I was very nervous when it came closer to the time to leave because the wall clock was a little fast, and I also didn't like to interrupt the teacher in her speech just to hand her a form to be excused from class. I was slightly off time, but it totally didn't matter. Daryl apparently "dragged" Kai Shiun along and they turned up too. For the first time in 4 years, I finally feel that I actually belong in the team, although it isn't so. The competitions are no longer about skill, and we happen to be one of those "cheats". I finally got to play, doubled with Timothy. The only reason we were on was because our opponents had virtually no chance. I expected to 发丢 a lot, but didn't even waste a single ball. And they ate everything. Haiz that concluded today and I'm feeling bad again. Oh chicken nuggets were awesome anyway.

Sunday, 23 January 2011

Bus ride: Did a good deed :), but waited like 20 minutes again. Searched the Timetable in desperation and then it came.

Training was again a balanced day? But I think I was more irritated by my 发丢s today than on Wednesday, this was way too many. Every match, 发丢 at least 4 times, totally unacceptable. Started off with Yirong 拉球。我真的不知道她在拉球还是杀球,我觉得我们打够长她能打断我的球拍,用这么大的力气. And I was really failing in the beginning. That took quite a while, then, close the shutters, returned for doubles. With Daryl.

Yirong and Jerilyn got 100% win, neither Daryl and I nor Dawn and Deirdre could beat them after repeated attempts, though I felt that we could have made it every single time. I felt that the difference was really my 发丢, because the scores were that close. Poor Hanzhi got a cute partner but not really strong as I expected, or she used to. I think Hanzhi might have been able to kill Yirong and Jerilyn if she had a better partner. Anyway, that's what we did. Win lose win lose. Almost lost ridiculously to a couple of kids, it would have been extremely embarrassing but we saved ourselves.

When Yirong and Jerilyn left, we played against Dawn and Deirdre. Won, then Dawn asked for rematch, so we played again, and lost. Then when coach came to ask who won, he didn't get it right and thought they won, so they were set against Benedict and Rui Jie, while we face Hanzhi and her nice little partner again. Winners were to be treated. But as usual, he didn't give me. What was worse was that he did give Dawn and Deirdre.

Wednesday, 19 January 2011

I just had a lot of crap to face today, this is really too much. I'm just going to list down points that probably only I will ever understand, in the event that I ever have to find a worser day than this.

PE
Bio Test
Maths Holiday Homework
Lousy training
KX TT
Physics Notes
Braces
SMS

Sunday, 16 January 2011

OK so I finally got to attend training. I waited long enough alright. But it was quite pissing at some parts. Talked to Isabelle a little, then coach asked me to clean this puddle of water with a cloth, totally felt like some housekeeper. I started off with a match against some girl who was already upset. Well I didn't do too well either, won 2 lost 2 before winning the last. Isabelle was asking for Deirdre and Hanzhi. She felt that she wasn't doing fine either. They did come eventually, so did Benedict, whom I had been looking for. Then, Ziping, and twins. Awesome. Next was doubles, and today, I found out I disliked 2 particular AT girls. So rude for their age, to someone much older. Well, I had to pair with one of them while Darrel took the other. Doubles match in our favour.

Following that match, I was made to play 三分 with the 5 girls, including the 2 of them, while Darrel got to do singles with Deirdre while Benedict and Darren, doubles against Hanzhi and Isabelle. I was irritated, right from the start。 叫人也要喊几次,又没礼貌地喊,你已为你是谁啊! I was so glad it lasted only one set, because we were then called to play Doubles. I got Darrel back, and coach promised us a drink each if we got 100% win. First was against Isabelle and one of those girls, was a standard comeback match, but we still got the win. Quite a few tycos, and Isabelle has now been added to the list of people who officially cannot 吃 my 发球.

Next was, those 2. Well they were incredibly unfocused and annoying because they kept laughing and didn't play seriously. For giving us an easy win though, I didn't mind. The third game was us against 2 more nicer girls, well, quieter. We took this too, though we lost a set. We waited to face Deirdre and Hanzhi, because Isabelle now had 小马 as her partner and they were playing an intense match against Benedict and Darren. Several disputes over the score came up, but in the end Benedict and Darren lost, then we were told to stop. And I did want to play against Deirdre and Hanzhi, but they would probably have resulted in our downfall and cost us the 100% win, so maybe it was better that way.

We then did 三分 with them, guys vs girls. Twins + Me vs Deirdre Hanzhi Isabelle. Well as usual, funny outcomes as each ball was important. We won the first set, lost the second, ended the third at 11 because it was taking too long. Well ok 12, because they decided to say deuce, and that sneaky Isabelle only said to end at 11 when they were there. I don't know what happened, but I think I got tired during the second set and started to fail. That probably resulted in constant losses, I guess.
2011, a currently ok start off. I love being on the top floor, towering over the rest, even though I'm short. Current state of events is that I'm coping with work. I am going to try and improve myself in terms of character and academic performance.

First week, I wanted to turn up for training, but camp killed that plan. The week after, or Wednesday, Level Test was in the way. Level Test was an unusually stressful period, for a test not given the weightage of an exam. Well, A-Maths was fine, I thought I would do badly here, comparing to last year's results, but I looked through my paper and found that I actually knew how to do everything, but the amount of careless mistakes were horrifying, I was so shocked when I saw that that was actually the cause of my poor result.

Physics, killed everyone. Really everyone. No one could tell me that they found it ok, all were expecting a fail. I found the paper unfair because we had not been tested on the topics included before and those topics were the majority of the questions. The Level Test was supposed to cover everything from last year including anything taught during the 2-week holiday class, but naturally most of us would study everything taught during term time as it consisted of more topics, but well, we still have to know this in the end so I guess it's better to fail now.

I studied hard for Chemistry that night, but didn't cover everything. The paper turned out to be everything that I had mastered in addition to the parts that I studied for. As I was again quite unfamiliar with the newer chapters, I was not sure how to answer the questions. At least it felt a lot better than "I don't know" as Physics made me feel so.

Biology was ok again, such a relief because I didn't want another paper like Physics, and it was also the last test. Stress would be over, temporarily as I face many more upcoming tests. I would finally be free to go for training, after a month. I really wanted to go but holiday, Level Tests and the Camp prevented that.

Friday, Pig's Eye Dissection. I was even more afraid of this than I had felt when cutting up it's heart. Eyeballs are a vital organ and they are very fragile. Once gone, they cannot be replaced, unlike livers and kidneys where transplants are possible. They are also very vulnerable to small sharp objects. The thought of having someone touch my eyeball was painful, but to have a knife through it with me alive, I'd rather be dead, I doubt I can take the agony. It also feels very unsafe to have just one eye, and you actually become more unsure with one eye in terms of reaching for objects.

So, in pairs. Our teacher demonstrated a dissection. The way he scrapped the skin of it, cut it's muscles away, then let the black vitreous humour leak out was disgusting. Flipping it inside out to see the blind spot was less so, but I still wouldn't want anyone playing with my eye like that. When we had to do it ourselves, I tried to be nice to the eye, didn't use too much force, resulted in failure, of course. Taking out it's lens was revolting. It's like having someone pull out your eyeball from it's socket, just that the lens is the eyeball and the eyeball is the socket. The jelly-like lens was flicked around, it seemed like it could split any moment, and that's terrible if it does happen in your eye. I even got a few pictures at the risk of my phone being taken away, but it was only done on request.

Saturday. Dental appointment. Got that bracket back in place, tightened a little. Went for training at 2.20. I was at the transfer stop at 2:55. 10 buses that I could have taken, came by, one of them, 4 rounds, except the one that I needed. I was frustrated by that. Every bus that came by, I hoped so hard for it to be it, but no. Then, when I finally got to school at 3.20, I found out that the hall was occupied, by painters. Really mad at what just happened. Everything that I went through, all the time that I was prevented from attending training, then finally getting the chance to come, took the long journey here, and this had to happen, training was cancelled because of painting. Well, that ends my day of any interesting activity, now I look forward to getting replies that training is on tomorrow, so that I can get to see my juniors, after a very long time.

Tuesday, 4 January 2011

Right ok so everything here, happened on the 2nd January.

Went to Dawn's place at 5pm, with 3 hours to go crazy over there. I got in through the side gate, then looked around the place. It was block 53 all around, then I walked around the correct block, looking for it. I finally asked some woman who happened to be walking her dog, and she pointed me to the right block, and I was surprised. I just wasted my time walking around the block I was supposed to be in. So anyway, reached 6th floor, heard their voices, rang the bell, door opened by maid, enter apartment.

It was a nice place, felt comfortable and spacious. Hanzhi, Deirdre and Daryl were playing cards, I don't know what, Dawn was sitting at the com and Kai Zhong was emo-ing. So I took a seat, and waited. Well, watched the 3 of them play cards. Deirdre said she was hungry and we decided to order KFC for dinner. So Dawn went to check their website, found the hotline, and called it. Answer was hotline was too hot, call back again in half an hour. Then they moved to Snap Jack. Dawn joined in. Being a spectator, it seemed easy, but the moment I joined, I got wrecked. I was so blur, slowest of them all. Brain lag, blamed it on jet lag. I couldn't see the pictures really well, and when the others snapped I just lagged even more because my mind was thinking first to snap wins instead of last to snap loses. I tried to cheat a couple of times by putting multiple cards and even gave some to Hanzhi. It didn't help because I still lost in the end, and Hanzhi won. Kai Zhong had more cards than me so he had to do a forfeit, prepared by Deirdre and Hanzhi who were the first 2 to win, a concoction of 8 ingredients including expresso, orange juice, peanut butter, kickapoo, milk, plum juice, ribena and ice lemon tea. It looked like milo, but the peanut butter wasn't dissolved, and it smelled like vomit. Tasted like something sour, Daryl took some, I took some, Kai Zhong drained the rest.

Dawn called KFC again, it got through. Ordered the Mega Meal, said to arrive by 7.35, then they wanted to order cheese. KFC said cannot deliver, so they were disappointed then Dawn called her mum and brother to help, her mum complied and they were happy again.

We did nothing for a while, well Hanzhi Deirdre and Dawn were playing with the piano, then we played UNO, Harry Potter's Uno. Each card had a picture of a Harry Potter Character on it. I barely got to see Hermione!!! And Dawn was like "Hagridddd" every time he appeared on the pile. There was this special card, "Expelliarmus", which caused the last card played to be returned to its owner while having the effect of draw 4, and it could be used on anyone. The effect of the last card played remained though. I was sitting next to Deirdre, unluckily for me, because she played the cards that didn't allow me to win. That draw 8 for her helped her to kill me even further. Skipping me, forcing me to draw 2, and reverse. I finally got to win when she reversed a reverse, was so relieved. Kai Zhong was just sitting there building card towers.

After UNO, we had nothing to do again. Hanzhi joined Kai Zhong in Card Towers, then Daryl was building dominos with UNO Stacko blocks, making a path to demolish Hanzhi's tower. Dawn opened the gates to her room and we all got in. It could fit us all 6 quite comfortably, and she had her own toilet, how awesome. Then Deirdre and Hanzhi accidentally got a peek at her diary and Dawn was pissed, or rather, embarrassed.

After that, Dawn's mum arrived with the cheese, KFC came, and Dawn's brother found his com screwed. He thought it was Dawn's fault, but it totally wasn't. It was asking for a Windows Hard Disk Recovery, meaning that all his data was lost. Pitied Dawn there. KFC was 15 chickens, potato chips in cheese, 2 mashed potatoes and 2 large popcorn chicken. Chicken Distribution Plan was 110544, in the order Daryl, Kai Zhong, me, Dawn, Hanzhi then Deirdre, then it became 111444. But in the end it was 111211, with another 1 on Daryl, 1 on me and there were 2 on Dawn's plate. We didn't finish it, it was too much, and Deirdre was asking for us to finish it.

Gift exchange was hilarious. Kai Zhong gave Daryl some cow torchlight, made a mooing sound when it was turned on. In return, Kai Zhong was given a pink squishy spiky ball. Deirdre drew a nice card and gave me a water bottle which had a bit of double sided tape stuck to it, thanks for that. Dawn gave Daryl a chick, really loled at that. Hanzhi had a hard time emptying my gift full of styrofoam balls, because the christmas tree was glass and needed to be protected. Anyway, we were really laughing at the gifts we all received, it was a really good time. Dawn had like what? 3 soft toys, a bag and a book, and still owes me one. But, her card was really sweet. BSILTO forever, Dawn <3.

I was supposed to be leaving, but Dawn called me back, said to give Daryl's surprise now. They lit the brownie cake that the 3 of them baked with 15 candles, then brought it out with a happy birthday song. The wax all melted and was left on the cake so the top layer was sort of scrapped off. I was given a slice first since I had to rush back home quick as curfew had kicked in, which I ate like a dog. It was good, joked that it might have been better without Dawn's assistance (Don't mean it at all k) since Deirdre had said that she wouldn't eat anything that Dawn cooked unless it was done with someone else with a couple of exceptions. It was really good, serious. Then I left :(.

On the ride home, there was this woman who left the bus without tapping her card and had to come back to do it, she had left the bus and tapped the door to come back in.