Back after so long, the big exam is over, but I did not quite get the feeling I thought I would have. I imagined myself being immensely excited about not having to look at books at all for 2 months and be at my liberty to do whatever I liked. However, that did not appear to happen and all I felt was a mere "It's over" in my head. I am happy, but not any happier than the same period in the previous years. Maybe it's because only after the exams did I realize that I actually had a shorter holiday period than usual. Whatever the case, I am glad that I get to play at all. I owe my parents so much.

A couple of days ago, 29 November, my class had 1 night Chalet, so I'll just go through it in order. I arrived at Pasir Ris Station at 1.40pm. Having never been there before, I assumed that Pasir Ris and Downtown East were just about the same thing. So while we were told to meet at Macdonalds in Downtown East, I stupidly headed for Pasir Ris Macdonalds. That didn't matter though, because no one kept their word and met at Downtown East. We were to head straight to the Chalet. In the unfamiliar region, I was absolutely unsure of where to go. Ming Xuan told me to take bus 354 and drop off one stop later, which I did. Then I checked Google Maps and went in the direction the map plotted. I walked on and on until I passed another bus stop which 354 would have gone to, but the Chalet was nowhere in sight. At that point, I was very annoyed because there was not a single classmate around. Ming Xuan called me again and requested that I head back to the first bus stop, at Downtown East Macdonalds, after which I got frustrated. It was already 2.10pm, I had been there walking for a whole half hour. I headed back, saw a Macdonalds sign in the middle of the car park labelled "24-hours". Making a 360˚ turn, I saw NO Macdonalds at all. Then I picked a random direction and walked ahead. After a while, it came to me that Macdonalds could not be that way. Disheartened and angered, I stopped to ask a cleaner if he knew where Macdonalds was. He pointed me in the opposite direction. I went into the building, walked on a bit more, still NO MACDONALDS AT ALL. Ming Xuan called me once more, and after that, finally found me. He led me to the Chalet. Aggravated, I asked him where the hell Macdonalds was and when I finally saw it, I thought in my head "Which stupid person put the Macdonalds sign outside but hid the actual restaurant deep within?" A 5 minute walk to the Chalet brought me to the rest of my class, about 12 people crammed into a small room with 2 beds, at long last.

Shortly after, Nicholas, Samuel, Apollos, Waise, Zhi Ming, Xu Kai, Darrin and I made our way to Wild Wild Wet. And then.... we waited. For Samuel's father, who had some way to get a discount for the tickets which would bring down the price from $16 to just $9. Quite a bargain, worth a 20 minute wait. I told Ming Xuan to take my camera and start spamming photos in my absence. Once we got past the entrance barrier, we went to deposit all our stuff in the locker. Everyone else was wearing slippers, only I wore shoes because I don't have slippers to begin with. To be honest, Wild Wild Wet isn't fun. 4 rides and only one which could scare me enough, but not long enough. The Lazy River was ok, and the waves took too long to wait for. So I'll just skip the Wild Wild Wet part. Only interesting incidents were Waise and Apollos losing their glasses in the Lazy River. We left the pools at 5.15 and showered quickly. Then we left and headed back to the Chalet. Along the way, we met Dingsen who told us that Ms Tan had arrived. So we went to "ambush" Ms Tan outside Mcdonalds and brought her back to the Chalet, where the barbecue team had started on their job.

The Barbecue took a really long time to start, there were 3 other groups of people near us who were also barbecuing and I believe they all did a better job than us. Apollos, Alex, Gerard and some others were watching the Mama awards in the Chalet. I think that K-Pop is stupid because the singers all rely on looking good which their fans are only interested in. They don't even understand what the K-Pop bands are singing. So anyway, I joined the lazers and just went to watch 神探狄仁杰. I was so immersed in it that I didn't notice Mr Wu's arrival. First thing to be cooked was a lot of Fried Rice, and Satay. When Zhi Ming took the role of fanning the barbecue pit, he accidentally flipped over several satay sticks when the styrofoam piece used to fan hit the grill. And we had plastic spoons with no big ladle or something to scoop large amounts of rice, so instead of scooping one spoonful onto a plate and then eating one spoonful from the plate, I took spoonfuls of rice directly. Just 10 mouthfuls of rice made my dinner.

At about 7.50pm, the bike gang went to rent the bicycles. A 20 minute walk, at night. We were planning to do midnight cycling. When we got there, I paid for everyone first. 10 bikes, for a total of $120. Then Gerard and Dingsen were added to the gang and added another couple of bikes. Darrin and Samuel dragged two bikes each back while the rest of us returned to the Chalet swiftly. We then locked up the bikes outside the room to be used later. I was entrusted with one of the keys tied to 3 bikes, Nicholas had one and so did Zhi Ming and Waise. Ms Leng had arrived and so had Ms Yeo. Mr Wu and Ms Yeo were both helping out with the barbecuing of what seemed like 50 Chicken Drumsticks which were being piled faster than they were being drained, there were just so many! Satay sticks had increased in numbers considerably while we were gone but they were quickly taken. I wanted coke but the two litres that had been brought to the chalet were already gone, so I went to the back and got one can from the vending machine conveniently placed there.

Nothing much happened until all the teachers left at 10.30pm. Hong Fu, Ming Yao, Ashley, Kaiser and Brendan had left as they were not staying overnight, leaving 14 of us in the Chalet. I checked my phone to receive an sms. That was when I realized that the key in my possession had gone missing. I did a quick search by myself before telling Nicholas that it had been misplaced. Soon after, all who remained for the night conducted a search for the lost key. They got me to tell them all the locations I had been in the past couple of hours. Fortunately, I had been in the barbecue pit for most of the time. The only other areas I went to were the vending machine and the corridor. I flipped my bag and pockets inside out at least 5 times each. We checked the beds that Kai Xun and Alex were sleeping on, bed sheets and mattress. No success in finding the key. I also said that there was no way the key could drop out of my pocket without my phone dropping out first since the phone was larger and heavier. Given the shallow pockets of my pants, things could drop when I crouched, which I did only once, when Waise was putting a plaster on his foot. And who wouldn't notice a dropped phone straightaway? I was feeling like an idiot for losing the key as the whole class excluding Alex and Kai Xun helped me search for the key. Even jokers like Apollos, Samuel and Gerard, whom I had never thought would take things seriously, participated in the hunt. They used phone torches to check the drains and the grass around the areas I had been in. Ming Xuan and Waise kept telling me not to worry and that we would definitely be able to find the key. After a 15 minute search, while I was still at the lower floor recollecting possible areas in which I could have lost the key, I heard a shout from upstairs saying that the key had been found. My heart lifted immediately as I rushed upstairs. Samuel had found out under his bag. Till now, I have no clue how it ended up there, but what mattered was that it had been found. I had long concluded that the key could not be up in the room because Nicholas and I had been counting money there when the key was last seen. I had taken it and if I hadn't, Nicholas would have definitely seen it. It was funny because Samuel had suggested that everyone checked their bags and pockets several times, and in the end it was found under HIS bag. After receiving the key back from Waise, I blamed myself for being such a careless person and told them that I could not be trusted with the key, but Waise said that everyone made mistakes and not to worry too much. He also said that it had given them something to do. 11pm, as my classmates played cards on the floor, I sat thinking about the incident.

While the search was ongoing, I saw how everyone was putting in their best effort to recover the missing key, even people whom I thought would never help me. That was when I felt that I belonged to my class. After finding the key and knowing that the class did not blame me for it at all, I felt even more touched. I felt so fortunate, so blessed by God that I had been placed in this class. I will never regret attending this chalet. Thank you Lord.

So after playing cards until about midnight, our dozen bikers, namely Nicholas, Samuel, Dingsen, Gerard, Waise, Darrin, Xu Kai, Apollos, Zhi Ming, Kai Xun, Keefe and myself, readied up for our midnight ride. Ming Xuan could not cycle and was to be left behind with our sleeping Alex. I lent Ming Xuan my phone to entertain him while we were gone. I teased him to go and look for the girls opposite if he was scared. So then we left for our first trip.

Nicholas suggested that each of us found a partner to pair with, whose safety we would be responsible for. It was an excellent idea, I must say. I chose... Dingsen. Starting with a round about Pasir Ris park, we warmed up and got used to the bicycles. I called for regular head counts while Nicholas led the group. After a while, Waise said that he would take the back cyclist and watch out for any missing souls or if they were lagging too far behind, so I need not worry about getting separated. Waise reported that Apollos took 5 seconds to get started cycling after he got up from a crash, which I later found to be really true and incredible.

We headed out of Pasir Ris Park onto the road, Pasir Ris Drive. We cycled into HDB Blocks, weaving in and out of close gaps. I didn't know where we eneded up but Nicholas somehow knew the way and managed to guide us back. We made a whole big round, ending up back outside Wild Wild Wet. We stopped by McDonalds to ask for water, something I didn't know they provided. Once back at Pasir Ris Park, we could not decide whether we wanted to go to East Coast Park or to Tampines, loitering in the area like a group of gangsters. We finally decided that we would return to the Chalet and decide on where to go next, since no matter what we chose, we would have to go past the Chalet. Before heading back, the whole lot of us stormed into Cheers at 2am to get drinks. I just took Dingsen's wallet and pulled out a $10 note from there to pay for both our drinks, because I had left my wallet with Ming Xuan. I still owe him $5.70 as of now, I forgot to pay him back.

Returning at 2am, I set foot back onto the floor of the Chalet and found Ming Xuan working out.... at 2am in the morning! Nothing better to do huh. With one member missing because Nicholas went out somewhere to visit his friend or something, the rest of us decided to play with poker cards until he came back. I didn't join in, because the forfeit involved eating 1 of the 30+ Chicken Wings and Drumsticks, which I don't like because I hate getting my hands oily. But it was a good way of cleaning up the immense pile of Chicken food on the aluminium foil, courtesy of Mr Wu's and Ms Yeo's cooking. Nothing much else happened, except that we were all tired and Waise said that now we were comfortable back at the chalet, he was ready to bet that we would not go out again. I went against that.

At 3am, or rather, 2.50, Nicholas finally returned, so I immediately called for another run at the bicycle, arguing with everyone's point that to make the overnight renting worth, we needed to ride at least 4 hours. And so, at 3am, I won the bet with Waise and we headed out again. It was painful to get back up though since we had exercised earlier and lost all momentum then. Buttocks and legs aching, we all revived our spirits and headed out once more. I do not remember exactly where we went, but we had to go to Pasir Ris park again and take another exit, through an overhead bridge. The bridge had a sign specifically targeted at Cyclists, that bicycles were not to be ridden on the overpass. Most of us ignored that until we were at the top, over the main road where we could be seen. Dingsen saw the $1000 fine and hastily got off. Once we were able to go downhill at the other side of the bridge, we let the bikes roll us down. I got to see Apollos crash during this trip and yes, he was terrible. He was moving at walking speed and he successfully hit a lamppost! It was incredible that something so thin could actually be of great threat to him. Anyway, we had to cross some wooden bridge where a couple stood. It was 3.30 then. When we came back at 4.30, they were still there. There was also this part where I almost crashed into a group of black people because I did not see them. That was not racist but for the first time in my life, the joke that black people could not be seen in the dark became reality.

Nicholas led the group to Sunway Park in Tampines, which we swept past and headed to the interchange for Macdonalds, cycling freely on the main road because there were barely any cars around. We cycled into the mall, and got caught by a guard who told us that we were not allowed to do that. It was funny because when Nicholas saw him, he got off quickly and started acting like he had been pushing his bike all along. The guard was an old man, and riding a bike himself. Most rules have exceptions, I guess. Mcdonalds was closed at the mall, so we went round the interchange to find another one which was open. And once again, we headed in as a whole group, asking for water. They must have been delighted that they were going to get 14 customers at 4am, then became upset when they found out that they were not going to do any business at all after hearing our requests. After the short break, we agreed that we had made the bikes worth overnight and started our return journey. Gerard and Darrin decided to race along this long stretch of road on the way back, so I joined in. I was utterly bewildered when Gerard overtook me so swiftly after I rode past him 10 seconds earlier. He continued forward until both him and Darrin were out of sight. I was shocked because Gerard has a small physique and he still had so much energy in his legs after all the cycling we had done. He would definitely have gotten a fine if speed limits were imposed on cyclists.

We rode back the same way we came, or somewhat the same. Back at Pasir Ris Park, I did another head count. After 11 including myself, I turned my head back and saw nothing. I started to get worried but I was sure they would be ok because Waise was behind. I was more worried about who the third guy was because I knew Waise and Zhi Ming were at the back. And I was certain that I had made no mistakes in my counting, 14 isn't that big a number. So after a 1 minute wait which is really long considering the speed of bicycles, three silhouettes showed up at the back. The mystery figure was Keefe, who was tired out. I was relieved once more and we headed back.

5am in the morning, I decided that I wanted to take MacDonald's breakfast. No one wanted to accompany me, so alone, I went down to MacDonald's and got myself an Egg McMuffin and Hashbrown. It was the best breakfast yet, because the McMuffin had been freshly made with hot cheese and the Hashbrown was so crisp and crunchy. I originally ordered coke, then I wondered why I would drink coke in the morning. I thought back to last year when I used to eat McDonald's on Sundays before trainings, and I remembered that I had Orange Juice back then. So I had to change the order to Orange Juice. The lady told me that I had to "add forty" but I heard "$8.40", from $5+ with coke so I was really surprised but didn't say anything. McDonalds had always raised their prices without warning. So I forked out another 3 dollars and she repeated to "add forty cents". Really, can't they speak properly and not in shortcuts? Well, I was happy that I didn't have to add 3 bucks for an Orange Juice, so I wasn't that annoyed.

Once back at the Chalet, I started to feel tired myself, but having made it to 5am, sleeping again only to wake up at 8 or 9 wouldn't get me sufficient rest. The double bed provided by the Chalet now contained 6 people, with Alex still sleeping since the day before. The rest of us continued to play cards and do random stuff. We all took turns to bathe in the single bathroom. The chalet was small because it was made for a family of 4. I myself laid on one of the steps of the staircase and watched them. At 7am, I somehow managed to get 15 minutes of peace, alone, and I dozed off. Just 15 minutes, but it felt really good. 7.30, people were talking about wanting to see the Sun rise, so they did. Gerard and I lost sight of them and we thought they would go to the beach since that was the most likely place. But the beach faced North. We then realized that they had been at the Swimming Pool at the Chalet, which I did not know existed. Well, they didn't managed to see it come up over the horizon either, from that angle. So we took the sunbathing chairs for our own use and took a short nap there, about 10 minutes.

At about 8am or so, we woke everyone up because we needed to start clearing up the Barbecue Pit and start cleaning up the place. With people like Apollos and Gerard around, litter in the Chalet was inevitable. Together, we all cleaned up the place. Bees and flies swarmed the rubbish bin outside, where about 8 bags of rubbish by people in the adjacent chalets were placed. All 4 chalets had done Barbecue the night before, so naturally, there would be large amounts of disposables. I left at about 8.50, before the rest of my class, because I was so tired. I wanted to get home and sleep as soon as possible, after 20+ hours awake. I got a ride home, reaching at 10.30, the time that we were supposed to check out of the chalet at. That concludes my 2-day Class Chalet 2011, and I will say it was really fun. I would like to do it again in the future if possible, but that will be decided by fate.

It's been 3 months already without a post? I did want to come back like about 500 times but always got too lazy or forgot about it. I've decided to do it today because well, I am bored and I don't want to sleep although I'm tired.

Prelim 2 ended today, so I took a really really good break, thanks to Jia Hui. I have to say I definitely did better than Prelim 1, but I am still frustrated that I just can't get some things right even after repetitive encounters with the same questions. As the final month draws closer, I hope that God will take care of everything. Somehow I just don't trust that everything will be fine. I definitely believe that God has everything planned for me, whatever happens, it is all meant to be. But then again, I can't just sit here and wait, so it feels like I have to do something but I feel that I can't make it. As late as it is, there is always time to put in just that bit of effort even if it won't produce the result I want.

Since June, things have been going downhill from tests to just plain work. I mess up little things and keep forgetting things, recently I've been wondering what I am actually good for and I have come up with the answer: Unnecessary stuff. Life is beautiful, even more so with each day that passes, but I really wonder why I am in it. Maybe God just gave me an opportunity to appreciate life. Maybe I'm supposed to teach others how to appreciate life. Maybe that's the reason I'm so terrible at school, grades are not needed for my future. After 3 months, with sufficient motivation, I have decided that I just want to be part of the people who try to fix poverty in the future. Reading the Geography textbook motivated this, the recent interview also showed me that what I really want to do is just to help others. I trust that God will provide the funds for my well-being, my job is just to take action and lend a helping hand to those who are suffering. That is probably what God has been trying to tell me all along, I am just going through education because it's part of life, but if my future is really about providing aid to the less fortunate, I should not worry too much about grades. I just hope that my theory is true. If I am not one to eliminate poverty, maybe I am supposed to encourage others to look on the bright side like I used to, to tell them why living is so great. I am probably meant to remind others that they are very fortunate people compared to those who fight for a grain of rice. If that is the job that I should take, I hope that God will tell me soon.

I'll just end here for now, too much to think about. God, Please let the next month pass quickly, but before that, help me as much as possible.

Dialogue in the Dark

Visited Dialogue in the Dark yesterday. It was really really cool. When I heard that it was going to be pitch dark in there, I didn't believe it because I thought my eyes were pro and could handle the dark, surely I'd still be able to see something. I could not have been more mistaken. But I wasn't that afraid though, I trusted my professional visually impaired guide with all my heart. But it was quite scary that it could be this dark and I wouldn't know if someone was next to me, as it was when the guide's voice came out suddenly. I've learnt to be grateful of my eyes, though I think it is great to have the ability to navigate without vision. It was really fun feeling like a blind although I staggered quite a little, being so unsure of my surroundings.

We were led through stones, sand and grass for the first part, hugging the left wall to feel plants and a tree's bark. Then we had to cross a wooden bridge, to a waterfall. After the waterfall was a sign that read "Sir Stanford Raffles", which we had to feel for. There was also a statue of Raffles on top, although we couldn't be sure if it was a real statue of him. After Raffles, we had to feel for a Car and a Bicycle. Following that, a walk to a jetty, still hugging the left wall. We boarded a River Taxi in the dark, supposedly headed for town. Crossed a traffic light like a blind person, then through a market, identifying certain food items. Felt for doors, a telephone and an ATM. Then we were led to a coffeeshop, where I ate a Cookie and drank Sugar Cane in the dark. We were also told how the Blind knew if they were receiving the correct change to avoid getting cheated. My guide was a 24-year old, diagnosed with night blindness at the age of 4, when her aunt spotted her having to bend down first and feel for an object that she dropped instead of just picking it up straight away. Partial blindness meant that she could still see a little, though it must be in very bright light. We were told that the Blind preferred to use iPhones for its Blind-friendly system. They had special watches which could voice out the current time, or have braille dots on them. The Blind had to rely on their stick to watch for staircases. As to how Blind people ate meals in restaurants, they could be told the location of the food items such as "The chicken is at your 12 O'Clock, and rice at 3 O'Clock", which was pretty interesting. As to how they boarded MRTs and Buses, they had to rely on public assistance for that.

Overall, it was a very cool experience and I would certainly like to be there again. Pity the blind, be grateful for our eyes. I still think that being able to guide oneself without eyes is very cool though.

Almost 2 months away now. A lot has happened. Of course, Prelim 1 was terrible, worst results of my life yet. Not going to talk about it. It was a really really good wake up call though, one that I've never had before.

NJC DSA Trials were disappointing, absolutely disappointing. Out of 7 matches, I won none. Well, I hoped that was a sign that I wasn't meant for NJC after that. Maybe it meant something better. We'll see.

June Holidays Lessons weren't too bad, it was quite relaxing actually. Bio SPA was ok, I hope. Chinese Oral Practice was a joke. Sean had really ridiculous presentations, using english words and absurd actions to accompany his speech. In a negative topic, 这个现象有好处也有坏处. I'm more impressed with his fast correction after he realized that. 好处太少所以我不要说. That became a standard opening to 影响 after that though.

In these 2 weeks that have passed, I found out who my true friends were, really. People whom I didn't expect before to care at all, surprised me by being more concerned that I had ever felt before. I feel so grateful to my friends now. I wish I had more time to treasure them, but perhaps its better this way, so that I'll cherish them even more from now on.

Yesterday, went out with Daryl Dawn Deirdre Hanzhi Kai Zhong for the last time before the rush. I overestimated the ride time by 40 minutes, so I reached Vivo City really early and spent my time scouting my way around the messy place. Felt like the place was so poorly designed. First to meet up with was Deirdre, who recognized me first, on the escalator next to me. I was so blind. Then we found Daryl and Kai Zhong at what, National Geographic? Dawn and Hanzhi came shortly after.

Laddaland at 3.20, went to have lunch first, at Burger King. Well, the rest did, at least, I just needed water. Spent $5 on bottles of Water in all. Talked about some nonsense, mean and disgusting topics. Left burger king at about 2.40 and went to the area facing Sentosa, where Deirdre blew our minds with Mary died last night, Coffee Tea, Back to the Future. Deirdre was so annoying, kept telling us to listen clearly for Mary's death. Coffee Tea was not as bad but still bad. Back to the Future, dropped it after 2 tries.

So then, Laddaland. I can't take horror because of its video content and it's creepy audio, but I had to live through it for 2 hours, since Dawn had suggested it when she herself was afraid, crazy much. Kept whispering to Hanzhi my... fears, haha. I was somewhat fine with it until near the end. That was the worst part. Best thing to do, "Sleep" through it.

After Laddaland, it was already 5.30. I don't know how we managed to walk around until 6.15 before settling atop Vivo City to play Cards. Oh right, we wandered into Giant. Kai Zhong went to buy some Beef Noodle first because he was so hungry. The girls introduced some other Card Games to us. Indian Poker was cool, except that I was helping everyone and sort of took the fun out of it. I lost snap jack, of course. Brain lag too much. We played until about 8.30 (2 hours of cards??? Insane) before going down to the Food Court for Dinner.

Had Egg Bee Hoon, first and final meal of the day, I'm sure I could have lasted all the way though. After the meal, Truth or Dare, at the table. Poor Kai Zhong got it 3 times in the row, with Deirdre's killer questions directed at him.

If you were a gay, who would you gay with?
What is a pickup line you would use if you wanted to get a girl to date you?

Can't remember the last one. And he actually got it for the 4th time in a row, but we spared him, how could he have been so unlucky? Pitied Dawn the most haha, Deirdre's question totally embarrassed her. I won't be forgetting that anytime soon. Hanzhi found a way out of her "Why did you like your first crush?" and Daryl's answer to his question was really unexpected. "To what extent would you go to impress a girl?" My question was really easy, and I had 2 to choose from. Deirdre ended it with her possible "Boyfriend Material" since she had never crushed on anyone in her life.

Took the same way back, MRT was still so crowded at 9.30pm. And I sabotaged Kai Zhong again, shall not talk about it.

Another year passes, here's a 2-in-1 post.

I had NAPFA test last Wednesday, which I enjoy a lot. It spoilt my plans for the Sports Day Performance, but after seeing what it was like, I felt it was better that I had been unable to attend. NAPFA test was, great. 24 of our 37 students were missing for valid reasons, only 13 were present. Of these 13, we were allowed to choose who we wanted to group with. I joined Boxin because he was just so awesome.

First station, Sit and Reach. 42cm, 43 for a B. Standing Broad Jump was a failure on my part, given that I had been doing that for 3 years now. I still could not hit an A let alone a B. 225 was my max, MAX, out of 20+ tries. I suggested Pull Ups before Sit-Ups, for stomach muscle was needed for Pull Ups. As I watched the rest get improved scores compared to usual, I feared myself not managing an A, which eventually did happen. I missed the A by 1 at 7, which was a de-provement. No matter, I was determined to try again later on, I had hung there, 2cm beneath the bar, for about 6 seconds attempting for the 8th after all, I believe I could do it.

Since I had not done hardcore Sit-Ups for months and during warm ups for PE had proved to be a problem recently, I thought that I would fail last year's 65, but I exceeded my expectations and did achieve that. But it resulted in a rather tired stomach after that, of course. Kevin was all for Shuttle Run immediately after that while the rest of us were still suffering the aftermath of the Sit Ups. We took a 30 second break and then started. The teacher randomed me since no one wanted to go first. 9.96 seconds on first attempt, thought it looked good until I found out that I was the slowest of the group. I went for an improvement run, which I did, by 0.01 seconds, still far slower than the rest. Well, I should be happy with the A.

Following that, we went back for another attempt at Sit and Reach and Standing Broad Jump. I could not improve my SBJ, 215. The first teacher also did not allow us to do Sit and Reach again.

Most of the group left, but I really wanted that B. 3rd time in the hall for Sit and Reach, I found an Indian Teacher who allowed me to do it again, 44cm, and I was happy before I realized it was just 46 for an A :(. When I heard that shoes could be taken off (when he tested Ming Xuan again), I almost facepalmed myself for not doing so, but it was already too late.

Boxin and I, we went to the Pull Ups Station once more. I managed the same streak again, 7 and counting. Mr Seow said that I was about there so he gave it to me. Happy much.

When I entered the hall for the 4th time, it was to help Ming Xuan for Standing Broad Jump. I myself did not believe the 225 was the furthest I could go, but as proven by the 20+ jumps that followed, 225 had been a very lucky max. The closest I got to that was 223.

With that, we gave up the improvement run. Got to thank Boxin for staying with me through all this, he could have left about 45 minutes earlier but he decided to wait for me.



Friday was Sports Day. I was really looking forward to it, but at the venue itself, I finally realized that the joy of Sports Day was not the event, but the time I got to spend with my friends due to early dismissal.

Ming Xuan and I, both being loners, decided to pair up for once, but had no idea where to go. I asked Boxin to join us, then San Zeng came in too. At the MRT station, Wang Lei Ashley and Ming Yao tagged along with us. We chose our random destination on the train, Singpost.

Unable to have a full agreement between Pastamania or Macdonalds, we split. Mushroom baked rice for me again, met Ee Jin and Xin Wei while ordering. They finished their food much earlier than us too, for we talked and laughed instead of eating, that's the usual thing to do nowadays anyway. Really enjoyed the company of Ashley Boxin and San Zeng.

So then we left for Hougang Stadium. Ming Xuan was still taking his time walking the 150m down when there were only 2 minutes left to the next train and we were running late. He still caught it somehow. Chose to drop at Kovan MRT and take a bus. Ming Xuan and Ming Yao were betting about where the bus would stop. Ming Yao lost, obviously. Haha jk, but erm yeah oversight and misunderstanding on his part.

We were a little late but so were many others. I then realized the horrible disadvantage of coming late, there was no comfortable place for us, let alone any sitting place. We were nomads thrice. Kai Xun helped me to move my bag to the reds but I completely forgot about Jia Hui's bag which had been left with me while he went for his 100m event. At Champagnat side, I found out the selfishness of the reds. They alone took up more than 1/3 of the stands, there were large gaps between them. Moving around this sparse area was much easier than maneuvring through one way traffic which caused inconvenience for an overwhelming number of people as their legs and bags were constantly kicked by the people walking down the one lane route. Eventually we arrived at the corner of the stadium, where my class was. No one cared about the house arrangement, my class was Champagnat dominated anyway. A ring of them were playing Monopoly Deal.

Sports Day started off with a March Pass by house members and CCA teams. Then banner competition. Lame as usual. I didn't really pay much attention to the 100m, but I know that I spent more than half the time in the tent waiting for my event. I had not known that I was down for it until Ming Xuan told me the night before. 4 x 100 relay. Given my failure in the heats, I thought I would not make it for the house, but I did. With that, I was set to wait in the tent for a long period of time without my phone. I really wanted to spam photos as it is my last year here. Darren and Darrel (slacking in the tent when they were not supposed to be there) could have looked after it for me when I went for the run, but I didn't bring it down. 

The time spent down there was not wasted, though it almost was. My 'teammates' were trying to replace me with people not even on the list. They let me back in right at the very end. The run was a disappointment. We placed last after 2 baton fails. Our first guy managed to drop his baton while I did not manage to pass it to the final runner successfully on the first try. Well, I didn't care anymore after that, I was happy to return to my class.

Sports Day ended at 4.30pm, much earlier than before. I then went with Boxin to the mall, to get some ice cream. Really appreciate him for accompanying me till I left for home. We got to talk and laugh some more. When I started my way home, he embarked on his hour run, where he just ran aimlessly around SG for an hour, then find an MRT Station to head back to his hostel.

School day was more eventful than usual today. First off, Ms Wong thought it was day 2 today and so turned up late for class. She left us to guess what she said when she found out it was day 7. Kevin set a good example by going to look for her when she was still absent after 10 minutes, and staff tried to call her phone which was on silent, so naturally that didn't work out.

During chem, Ms Yeo was writing on the board when this rather big green insect appeared in front of her and she jumped back in surprise. Gerrard said: punch it. Ms Yeo invited him forward to do so, which of course did not happen. Instead, the insect flew towards him. Gerrard retreated hastily from it by ducking. Everyone was in fits of laughter. The bug came round hovering over my side and San Zeng was prepared to hit it but I just acted like I wasn't afraid of it when I really was because I feared it might be a disease spreading mosquito. Ms Yeo then called for Samuel who was being punished outside the class, to use a file and wave it out of the window but not kill it. After a slight chase round half the lab, he managed to get the insect to a closed window. He pushed the window open with the file and within split seconds, it was gone.

Maths was stupid, I forgot to bring my notes. And there were some usual rebellious remarks. The current chapter of notes was prepared by Mr Wu, and he had always said that mistakes were present in other teacher's notes because they were not prepared by him, jokingly of course. Ironically, there were at least 5 errors in his notes, though they were really trivial. An example was the mispelling of Dhoby Ghaut. Another was a distance covered of 400m in 4 hours. Ridiculously slow, but he found an excuse for it, that it was perfectly logical, a snail could do that. So we changed it to km, then the speed became too great for normal cars on an expressway, at 200km/h. Either too fast or too slow, haha.

So its 4 bad trainings in a row now. Lost to Marcus twice, Dawn twice, Jerilyn once and a girl whose name I don't know, pathetic loss either way. It's making me want to give up on TT and now I just can't wait for end April to come.

I was actually looking forward to today, bad idea now. PE was a fail. I took up the goalkeeper's role today since Ming Xuan had been previously and suffered unfairly. We finally picked up our first win in 4 or 5 weeks? Happy much, then the next opponent, started off with a straight shot for the goal. At waist level, I was unable to meet the ball and it just flew straight into the net. Worst, win, ever. Fastest goal of all time, really.

There were some impressive plays by the other teams, as usual. Its exciting to watch. When we had our second chance, Kai Xun had the post of goalkeeper. We defeated a second opponent, and out came the next one. My other three teammates blocked the middle this time while I feared a shot from the right so I was on guard over there. The ball was played by the opposing team, THROUGH the legs of my three teammates and into the corner of the net as Kai Xun brainlagged and missed the save. Second embarrassing loss in one day, 2 fastest games of all time. Epic.

Physics test, lol went bad but I know where I went wrong. I had 2 minutes left and my last page was blank, one question had 4/20 marks. Most people were in the same situation. But I then found out that we were given 5 lines for a 1 mark question. The 4 mark question was merely a table to fill in, easy enough. Wow that page really scared everyone. Majority of the time was spent on a calculation question though, where I haven't found anyone with the same answer.

The day passed rather slowly, I was doing my manual countdown to the end of the day with my calculator again. 1500 seconds. Bell rang at 17.

Went for Track and Field heats. I signed up for 100m 200m and 4 X 100m but I only ran the 100m because I wanted to go back for training, so I just dropped the 200m. I wasn't eligible for the relay anyway, finished 4th or 5th during my run.

Made my way back to school, played Darren a bit, beat Marcus in the dark, when the lights came on, lost to him. End of day. Saw this guy do 13 pull ups in like 30 seconds, might have had more before that. Motivated me so hard that I set a new record for myself today.

Final day of Term 1, I am really glad for this break. But that's not the point of this post.

Today, an earthquake of magnitude 8.9 hits Japan. Reading the articles and reports are saddening, watching footage of the situation is even more horrifying. As a tsunami wrecks havoc around the country, I feel sympathetic to survivors who lose their homes and just about everything they have ever had. As for the death toll, I expect it to be high as it is a populated city and most of the buildings have collapsed and are traveling along with the water as scrap chunks. The recovery for Japan will not be an easy one, neither is clearing up the debris just for that to happen. Despite Japanese cruelty in World War 2, this is not what they deserve. God please have mercy on the people and help them to survive through this night as the tsunami rages on to other parts of the world. Please ensure that they suffer no more, the disaster is bad enough and could possibly get worse. It is in your hands to prevent this and save the people. As for the aftermath, help Japan to recover quickly, millions of people are currently without electricity in Japan. Help stop this catastrophe which may arise in other countries quickly. Amen.

4 Sundays later, I finally get a good training session. We're now in Finals of the tournament, ready to face SSS. We'll win, naturally.

3.30 arrival, on time, for once. I expected no one to come, but it was quite full. Well I wasn't tasked with anything at the start, so I just played with Benjamin for a while until he went to 'catch his breath'.

After that we played some ultra stupid joke game of baseball, table tennis style. Darren and I, Ben and Darrel. We were all so tickled and amused by all the crap that came up. Changing pitcher and batters, random home runs, strikes and balls 1 2 and 3. It was a really funny time but sadly boring for me after a while.

I ended that dumb game of baseball by asking to play doubles proper. 3 - 2 we won, last set 11 - 9, I was quite happy that I beat Ben somewhere, having lost to him thrice in the past 2 weeks, but I haven't gotten the satisfaction of winning in Singles yet.

Following that, I doubled with Marcus against the Darren and Benedict. 3 - 2 close win again for us. Then we followed up with dumb game 2. Triples :) Not as retarded as Baseball, but insanely hard to play. And it didn't last too long either. Still hilariously stupid though.

Coach made me pair with Benjamin next, against Darren and Ben again. We lost this time, 3 - 2. I found one part very funny. Ben told Darren to serve some ball, and Darren was preparing to serve, then he was about to throw the ball but stopped and said: "Results may vary". I don't know if it's me or what but I felt that was really good. I guess its the phrase and words that he used.

So after that, the epic season began. 4 seniors + our 4 doubles paired. That is, 大的带着小的，打双打. Each pair played against every other pair. There were many points where the seniors would shout in unison out of surprise. I didn't take note of the first match, I was playing a match with Marcus and Timothy each, both which I won. All I can say is that all their matches were intense, most of them going up to 2 - 2 and having a really sweatbreaking last set. Darren and his 长胶 partner lost to Edwin and Darrel, while Ben and his doubles guy won Ying Jie and Rui Jie.

Edwin + Darrel vs Ying Jie + Rui Jie, 2 - 3.
Darren + idk vs Ben + idk, 3 - 2
Played with Ziping, didn't realize he was using his left hand because the balls were still very 转, madness.

Final match, Edwin Darrel got an easy win over Ben and his teammate. Rui Jie Ying Jie Darren and Mr. 长胶 had a fight to the bitter end. Ying Jie just kept doing his dives to the ground, which he said was commitment to earning the point. Apparently there was one point where Ying Jie dived, when the ball came back, Rui Jie went to receive but tripped over Ying Jie's head in the process. Darren's return missed and both him and his partner collapsed in disbelief ad frustration, so all 4 players were on the ground. 

Darrel missed another vital point in the last set where neither Ying nor Rui Jie were in the position to stop it, and it was a high ball too. Utter embarrassment. Darren and the 长胶 guy lost in the end.

Had another match with Timothy, then left for home. 6 pull ups today.

It's been raining heavily for 3 days straight now, to the point that there were at least 50 people late for school today. Car engine overheated, it was moving at like 5km/h, lucky it was in school when that happened so we could park the car.

The day passed reasonably well, Jia Hui has left for Malaysia. Competitions still going well, we've guaranteed ourselves a spot in the nationals, naturally. Days have been uneventful recently.

I'm feeling terrible right now because of someone who means a lot to me. School part made me feel even more stressed, what's with the homework and tests being so numerous and having such close dates to each other? Add to that Table Tennis Tournament, and I don't exactly live close to school. Well I'll make it through this, and the shit that I'm so upset about. Each of them is a small thing, but when small things come in large numbers, the feeling that comes with it is a painful one.

I had an ok time with school, I was very nervous when it came closer to the time to leave because the wall clock was a little fast, and I also didn't like to interrupt the teacher in her speech just to hand her a form to be excused from class. I was slightly off time, but it totally didn't matter. Daryl apparently "dragged" Kai Shiun along and they turned up too. For the first time in 4 years, I finally feel that I actually belong in the team, although it isn't so. The competitions are no longer about skill, and we happen to be one of those "cheats". I finally got to play, doubled with Timothy. The only reason we were on was because our opponents had virtually no chance. I expected to 发丢 a lot, but didn't even waste a single ball. And they ate everything. Haiz that concluded today and I'm feeling bad again. Oh chicken nuggets were awesome anyway.

Bus ride: Did a good deed :), but waited like 20 minutes again. Searched the Timetable in desperation and then it came.

Training was again a balanced day? But I think I was more irritated by my 发丢s today than on Wednesday, this was way too many. Every match, 发丢 at least 4 times, totally unacceptable. Started off with Yirong 拉球。我真的不知道她在拉球还是杀球，我觉得我们打够长她能打断我的球拍，用这么大的力气. And I was really failing in the beginning. That took quite a while, then, close the shutters, returned for doubles. With Daryl.

Yirong and Jerilyn got 100% win, neither Daryl and I nor Dawn and Deirdre could beat them after repeated attempts, though I felt that we could have made it every single time. I felt that the difference was really my 发丢, because the scores were that close. Poor Hanzhi got a cute partner but not really strong as I expected, or she used to. I think Hanzhi might have been able to kill Yirong and Jerilyn if she had a better partner. Anyway, that's what we did. Win lose win lose. Almost lost ridiculously to a couple of kids, it would have been extremely embarrassing but we saved ourselves.

When Yirong and Jerilyn left, we played against Dawn and Deirdre. Won, then Dawn asked for rematch, so we played again, and lost. Then when coach came to ask who won, he didn't get it right and thought they won, so they were set against Benedict and Rui Jie, while we face Hanzhi and her nice little partner again. Winners were to be treated. But as usual, he didn't give me. What was worse was that he did give Dawn and Deirdre.

I just had a lot of crap to face today, this is really too much. I'm just going to list down points that probably only I will ever understand, in the event that I ever have to find a worser day than this.

PE
Bio Test
Maths Holiday Homework
Lousy training
KX TT
Physics Notes
Braces
SMS

OK so I finally got to attend training. I waited long enough alright. But it was quite pissing at some parts. Talked to Isabelle a little, then coach asked me to clean this puddle of water with a cloth, totally felt like some housekeeper. I started off with a match against some girl who was already upset. Well I didn't do too well either, won 2 lost 2 before winning the last. Isabelle was asking for Deirdre and Hanzhi. She felt that she wasn't doing fine either. They did come eventually, so did Benedict, whom I had been looking for. Then, Ziping, and twins. Awesome. Next was doubles, and today, I found out I disliked 2 particular AT girls. So rude for their age, to someone much older. Well, I had to pair with one of them while Darrel took the other. Doubles match in our favour.

Following that match, I was made to play 三分 with the 5 girls, including the 2 of them, while Darrel got to do singles with Deirdre while Benedict and Darren, doubles against Hanzhi and Isabelle. I was irritated, right from the start。 叫人也要喊几次，又没礼貌地喊，你已为你是谁啊！ I was so glad it lasted only one set, because we were then called to play Doubles. I got Darrel back, and coach promised us a drink each if we got 100% win. First was against Isabelle and one of those girls, was a standard comeback match, but we still got the win. Quite a few tycos, and Isabelle has now been added to the list of people who officially cannot 吃 my 发球.

Next was, those 2. Well they were incredibly unfocused and annoying because they kept laughing and didn't play seriously. For giving us an easy win though, I didn't mind. The third game was us against 2 more nicer girls, well, quieter. We took this too, though we lost a set. We waited to face Deirdre and Hanzhi, because Isabelle now had 小马 as her partner and they were playing an intense match against Benedict and Darren. Several disputes over the score came up, but in the end Benedict and Darren lost, then we were told to stop. And I did want to play against Deirdre and Hanzhi, but they would probably have resulted in our downfall and cost us the 100% win, so maybe it was better that way.

We then did 三分 with them, guys vs girls. Twins + Me vs Deirdre Hanzhi Isabelle. Well as usual, funny outcomes as each ball was important. We won the first set, lost the second, ended the third at 11 because it was taking too long. Well ok 12, because they decided to say deuce, and that sneaky Isabelle only said to end at 11 when they were there. I don't know what happened, but I think I got tired during the second set and started to fail. That probably resulted in constant losses, I guess.

2011, a currently ok start off. I love being on the top floor, towering over the rest, even though I'm short. Current state of events is that I'm coping with work. I am going to try and improve myself in terms of character and academic performance.

First week, I wanted to turn up for training, but camp killed that plan. The week after, or Wednesday, Level Test was in the way. Level Test was an unusually stressful period, for a test not given the weightage of an exam. Well, A-Maths was fine, I thought I would do badly here, comparing to last year's results, but I looked through my paper and found that I actually knew how to do everything, but the amount of careless mistakes were horrifying, I was so shocked when I saw that that was actually the cause of my poor result.

Physics, killed everyone. Really everyone. No one could tell me that they found it ok, all were expecting a fail. I found the paper unfair because we had not been tested on the topics included before and those topics were the majority of the questions. The Level Test was supposed to cover everything from last year including anything taught during the 2-week holiday class, but naturally most of us would study everything taught during term time as it consisted of more topics, but well, we still have to know this in the end so I guess it's better to fail now.

I studied hard for Chemistry that night, but didn't cover everything. The paper turned out to be everything that I had mastered in addition to the parts that I studied for. As I was again quite unfamiliar with the newer chapters, I was not sure how to answer the questions. At least it felt a lot better than "I don't know" as Physics made me feel so.

Biology was ok again, such a relief because I didn't want another paper like Physics, and it was also the last test. Stress would be over, temporarily as I face many more upcoming tests. I would finally be free to go for training, after a month. I really wanted to go but holiday, Level Tests and the Camp prevented that.

Friday, Pig's Eye Dissection. I was even more afraid of this than I had felt when cutting up it's heart. Eyeballs are a vital organ and they are very fragile. Once gone, they cannot be replaced, unlike livers and kidneys where transplants are possible. They are also very vulnerable to small sharp objects. The thought of having someone touch my eyeball was painful, but to have a knife through it with me alive, I'd rather be dead, I doubt I can take the agony. It also feels very unsafe to have just one eye, and you actually become more unsure with one eye in terms of reaching for objects.

So, in pairs. Our teacher demonstrated a dissection. The way he scrapped the skin of it, cut it's muscles away, then let the black vitreous humour leak out was disgusting. Flipping it inside out to see the blind spot was less so, but I still wouldn't want anyone playing with my eye like that. When we had to do it ourselves, I tried to be nice to the eye, didn't use too much force, resulted in failure, of course. Taking out it's lens was revolting. It's like having someone pull out your eyeball from it's socket, just that the lens is the eyeball and the eyeball is the socket. The jelly-like lens was flicked around, it seemed like it could split any moment, and that's terrible if it does happen in your eye. I even got a few pictures at the risk of my phone being taken away, but it was only done on request.

Saturday. Dental appointment. Got that bracket back in place, tightened a little. Went for training at 2.20. I was at the transfer stop at 2:55. 10 buses that I could have taken, came by, one of them, 4 rounds, except the one that I needed. I was frustrated by that. Every bus that came by, I hoped so hard for it to be it, but no. Then, when I finally got to school at 3.20, I found out that the hall was occupied, by painters. Really mad at what just happened. Everything that I went through, all the time that I was prevented from attending training, then finally getting the chance to come, took the long journey here, and this had to happen, training was cancelled because of painting. Well, that ends my day of any interesting activity, now I look forward to getting replies that training is on tomorrow, so that I can get to see my juniors, after a very long time.

Right ok so everything here, happened on the 2nd January.

Went to Dawn's place at 5pm, with 3 hours to go crazy over there. I got in through the side gate, then looked around the place. It was block 53 all around, then I walked around the correct block, looking for it. I finally asked some woman who happened to be walking her dog, and she pointed me to the right block, and I was surprised. I just wasted my time walking around the block I was supposed to be in. So anyway, reached 6th floor, heard their voices, rang the bell, door opened by maid, enter apartment.

It was a nice place, felt comfortable and spacious. Hanzhi, Deirdre and Daryl were playing cards, I don't know what, Dawn was sitting at the com and Kai Zhong was emo-ing. So I took a seat, and waited. Well, watched the 3 of them play cards. Deirdre said she was hungry and we decided to order KFC for dinner. So Dawn went to check their website, found the hotline, and called it. Answer was hotline was too hot, call back again in half an hour. Then they moved to Snap Jack. Dawn joined in. Being a spectator, it seemed easy, but the moment I joined, I got wrecked. I was so blur, slowest of them all. Brain lag, blamed it on jet lag. I couldn't see the pictures really well, and when the others snapped I just lagged even more because my mind was thinking first to snap wins instead of last to snap loses. I tried to cheat a couple of times by putting multiple cards and even gave some to Hanzhi. It didn't help because I still lost in the end, and Hanzhi won. Kai Zhong had more cards than me so he had to do a forfeit, prepared by Deirdre and Hanzhi who were the first 2 to win, a concoction of 8 ingredients including expresso, orange juice, peanut butter, kickapoo, milk, plum juice, ribena and ice lemon tea. It looked like milo, but the peanut butter wasn't dissolved, and it smelled like vomit. Tasted like something sour, Daryl took some, I took some, Kai Zhong drained the rest.

Dawn called KFC again, it got through. Ordered the Mega Meal, said to arrive by 7.35, then they wanted to order cheese. KFC said cannot deliver, so they were disappointed then Dawn called her mum and brother to help, her mum complied and they were happy again.

We did nothing for a while, well Hanzhi Deirdre and Dawn were playing with the piano, then we played UNO, Harry Potter's Uno. Each card had a picture of a Harry Potter Character on it. I barely got to see Hermione!!! And Dawn was like "Hagridddd" every time he appeared on the pile. There was this special card, "Expelliarmus", which caused the last card played to be returned to its owner while having the effect of draw 4, and it could be used on anyone. The effect of the last card played remained though. I was sitting next to Deirdre, unluckily for me, because she played the cards that didn't allow me to win. That draw 8 for her helped her to kill me even further. Skipping me, forcing me to draw 2, and reverse. I finally got to win when she reversed a reverse, was so relieved. Kai Zhong was just sitting there building card towers.

After UNO, we had nothing to do again. Hanzhi joined Kai Zhong in Card Towers, then Daryl was building dominos with UNO Stacko blocks, making a path to demolish Hanzhi's tower. Dawn opened the gates to her room and we all got in. It could fit us all 6 quite comfortably, and she had her own toilet, how awesome. Then Deirdre and Hanzhi accidentally got a peek at her diary and Dawn was pissed, or rather, embarrassed.

After that, Dawn's mum arrived with the cheese, KFC came, and Dawn's brother found his com screwed. He thought it was Dawn's fault, but it totally wasn't. It was asking for a Windows Hard Disk Recovery, meaning that all his data was lost. Pitied Dawn there. KFC was 15 chickens, potato chips in cheese, 2 mashed potatoes and 2 large popcorn chicken. Chicken Distribution Plan was 110544, in the order Daryl, Kai Zhong, me, Dawn, Hanzhi then Deirdre, then it became 111444. But in the end it was 111211, with another 1 on Daryl, 1 on me and there were 2 on Dawn's plate. We didn't finish it, it was too much, and Deirdre was asking for us to finish it.

Gift exchange was hilarious. Kai Zhong gave Daryl some cow torchlight, made a mooing sound when it was turned on. In return, Kai Zhong was given a pink squishy spiky ball. Deirdre drew a nice card and gave me a water bottle which had a bit of double sided tape stuck to it, thanks for that. Dawn gave Daryl a chick, really loled at that. Hanzhi had a hard time emptying my gift full of styrofoam balls, because the christmas tree was glass and needed to be protected. Anyway, we were really laughing at the gifts we all received, it was a really good time. Dawn had like what? 3 soft toys, a bag and a book, and still owes me one. But, her card was really sweet. BSILTO forever, Dawn <3.

I was supposed to be leaving, but Dawn called me back, said to give Daryl's surprise now. They lit the brownie cake that the 3 of them baked with 15 candles, then brought it out with a happy birthday song. The wax all melted and was left on the cake so the top layer was sort of scrapped off. I was given a slice first since I had to rush back home quick as curfew had kicked in, which I ate like a dog. It was good, joked that it might have been better without Dawn's assistance (Don't mean it at all k) since Deirdre had said that she wouldn't eat anything that Dawn cooked unless it was done with someone else with a couple of exceptions. It was really good, serious. Then I left :(.

On the ride home, there was this woman who left the bus without tapping her card and had to come back to do it, she had left the bus and tapped the door to come back in.